Wanted to give a shout out to everyone who reads these crazed rambles. Whether you read every blog, occasionally pop your head in and shudder at the petulant madness, or maybe you don't read any more because I drove you off (I can think of more than a few of you). Just wanted to give a heartfelt thanks to all of you! Deving alone can be pretty painful, but along the way it's nice to know there are a few kind souls out there that care, at least a little bit.

ENOUGH CRINGY SENTIMENT! WE MUST BE STRONG AND HEARTLESS TO PUSH FORWARD!

Well that's not true at all, in fact to make great games you kinda need to obsess about fixing what's made to be broken, and that's everything in this bizarre human existence.

I've been relying on melatonin to try to get sleep lately, and after being sleep deprived, medicated, and after consistent 12 hour crunch sessions, the brain starts to wander to bizarre place, and it's such a damned depressing time with AI looming. And all of humanity is heading to the cliff, but no one seems to be able to turn the wheel, we've all just accepted our fates as we careen off the singularity.

It's more than sad. What on Earth have we become?

Anyway, veering dangerously close to our terrible bitching and moaning we're trying to stay away from. Can't be too real in this soft world.

As the title says, distance makes the heart grow fonder. Hope everyone is doing well out there, I always feel awkward typing these sentiments as I'm worried the wrong people will think I'm speaking directly to them and it gets awkward! But I am actually talking to all of you, because if I didn't want the world to see all this, I wouldn't type it!

Anyhow, I've been pouring myself into the project of late, and I feel as though my blogs of late have just been draining what little energy I have left and it kinda feels like I'm just going through the motions. And for what? To make an insufferable ass of myself in a rarely frequented corner of the internet?

So I didn't want to ghost what few of you still read these blogs, so I wanted to make a post about how I'm gonna take a short break till I have things that are compelling to say and the spare energy to say them right without pulling away from development on SeaCrit.

Really been in the trenches lately, like more than ever, dev has been nuts. I'm just so grateful that we've got the will to push forward and the health to do so of late. It is painful to think that in this world, many see us as this crazed monster that needs to be stopped at all costs. But it is what it is.

It's ok to have enemies. It means you stood for something for once in this miserable existence.

We've run our mouth and done enough damage of late anyhow. Time for a little break.

We'll kick this back up when we put the next build up! Which might be a few days from now, might be weeks! I dunno! Gamedev is a never-ending hellride! But know that it is my neverending ambition to try to get this in a good place, to try to set things to right and though the blogs are slowing, the bleeding will not.

If I've ever drunkenly made sushi in you bed at 4 in the morning, I especially hope you're doing well, and I regret some of the tirades I've gone on, this world has made us all a bit mad, but I shouldn't take that out on the innocent. As for the rest of you I hope all the rest of you are doing well too! This blog sure gets awkwardly candid sometimes. Anyhow you're all the best!