La Roux is criminally underrated.

Was it justified?

Who gives a shit?

Time for us to get back to it. Shooting our mouth off, hooping and hollering, being optimistic and going on long rambles about game design. We've kinda become obsessed by this artificial cult of personality. GOTTA CHASE THE LOWEST COMMON DENOMINATOR! Can't show you're human! Can't show you have good days and bad days. Don't offend anyone! Be measured, be boring, be safe, be soft.

Good fucking god we need to get over that shit! That was nice 100 years ago when Radio  and TV was new and everyone was insufferable and authenticly shit to one another. Now we live in this candy ass fake reality where everyone just blows smoke up each other's assholes. It's not healthy any more you disingenuous fucktards!

I actually don't know what to write any more. Things are changing so fast in this world, I'm genuinely optimistic for the future right now. For so long I worried we'd continue to be kicked in the dirt, but that no longer appears to be an issue. The gates are blowing wide open, there is nothing standing in our way other than making SeaCrit a great game!

All those years we stewed. All those obstacles mounting above us. And we slaved and we slaved, and we set the bar so impossibly high for ourselves. And now all at once, the shackles are releasing, the mountains are toppled to the gulf, and SeaCrit might be becoming good! My health has been steady for a few months on end! It's like all our bad fucking luck is suddenly vanished (So long as we keep the topics of this blog very narrow XD).

I can feel the neckbeard energies returning. It always does.

So we'll say that same fucking tired line again. Don't wanna get TOO cocky and say the game is kicking ass, because if it's not we'll look like even more of a dumb ass. Gotta pussyfoot and say the project is probably going to be a total failure and we're a moron and we have no idea what we're doing, gotta play the fool so if it is successful it hits that much harder. Gotta keep it SeaCrit, it's in the title of the game FFS!

MAYBE WE'RE FUCKING CRAZY! MAYBE THESE ARE ALL DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR AND WE'RE DOOMED TO CONTINUE TO ROT IN THIS SQUALOR!

But maybe... just maybe....

...maybe we were the only sane mother fucker that gave a single solitary shit in this entire god forsaken industry.

We are on FUCKING FIRE right now. Dev has been a total PAIN IN THE ASS, but we've been sucking it up and trudging through 10+ hour days on 4 hours of sleep left and right. For several days in a row now I've been sucking it up and fixing up all sorts of tertiary things so that SOON there will be nothing left to do but add the fish, add their item drops, add the shops, quickly set them up to sell cool shit, and iterate, iterate, iterate.

If SeaCrit is even REMOTELY good, I'm excited as hell by how fast I will be able to make it better. We know this fucking project like the back of our hand, we are a far more capable coder and designer than we were even 4 months ago. 

This isn't even our final fucking form.

Are we a fucking douche-bag? Well, yeah. 

Are we a neckbeard? Absolutely. 

Are we a total perfectionist that's a pain in the ass to work with? Eh, maybe sometimes, but only when the project depends on it.

Do we obsess entirely too much about making quality games, and tools, and pipelines, and gameplay loops? 100%.

And you know what? I think that qualifies us to make some fuckin' video games.

You don't have to get permission to follow your life's calling. You don't have to set up the right buzzwords in your resume, brown nose the small vapid social clubs, crawl into work on your hands and knees and grovel to all the petulant weak willed smarm fucks.

And for 8 fucking years we payed the price for that.

Now it's time to whoop some ass, AGAIN!

We don't HAVE to slave our life away trying to make this game ENITRELY better than it has any right to be in our lonesome. We GET TO.

To war M*ther Fuckers

I'M WORKING HARD TO DRIVE ALL OF YOU AWAY! JK. I have some old friends, maybe an old flame or two (who I hope are happy, but not TOO happy, JK XD), old acquaintances, old college buddies, some close family, and who knows, maybe just some insufferable neckbeards I've insulted in the wilds of the internets. And most all of them have told me how bizarre this blog is XD. Well we're too far gone, so too bad!

So point is, I hope no one takes this blog TOO personally or seriously. These are just the crazed rambles of a lunatic who's burned out and needs to feel some pang of emotion to avoid going stir crazy, even if that pang is of embarrassment for writing such bizarre blathers. 

It's also a key point of in these blogs that we are all actually the same and that all this finger pointing, all this blame and all the tribal lines have been really fucking stupid. And the world is crazy and there's so much chance, but also things are inevitable and inescapable and you shouldn't take it too hard, but also we can change for the better. YOU KNOW HOW IT BE! At this moment, I'm the shitty one. I'm the resentful one, angry, and miffed that things haven't been going my way for a while. Is that on me. OBVIOUSLY NOT, nothing is ever my fault i've been perfect and this world owes me BIG TIME. So yeah, just need some time to be a whiney insufferable fuck because 8 years now hasn't been enough apparently.

So anyway. Project is kicking ass. I haven't been this excited for the future in a long time. We ain't got much, but we do have this silly little project, and god damn have we been whoopin' ass of late. So time to go keep it goin'!

(Yes I lied in my last blog post, I didn't have NEARLY the self restraint to wait till our demo was out to commit to more blathers, SUE ME!)