I don't want to get too dramatic, but it was a pretty rough Thanksgiving.

What are we grateful for?

Our country has been bled.

Our industry is stifled.

Our Unity is torn.

Friendships broken.

Relationships thrown in the trash without the slightest care.

The discourse is shallow and petty.

The future is chaos.

Our faith is waned.

I don't like making this post, because I know there will be those out there who get off on our misery. And honestly, I'm kind of fucking over it.

No more blog posts for a bit. I'm going to get off social media too. It's a downward spiral of negative energy. Just a sounding chamber for insolence, and for assholes to take their hate out on one another.

This won't be a negative blog post.

Despite the above we still have our resolve.

I can't help but think of what could have been. We could be working to contribute a great game for a grateful player base. For an industry that celebrates creative game creators, without any of this cancelation and hate.

This industry is filled to the brim of self serving phonies holding on to the gatekeeping and echo chambers trying to ensure the changing tides won't reveal to the world what terrible shephards they have been of this industry. What bodies lie beneath them.

Their increasingly deranged behavior has not improved the situation in recent weeks.

I still cannot come to terms with how hateful and petty, and effortlessly these people throw us away. The pain doesn't soften, it just enflames year over year in the light of how blatant it all is.

No remorse, no shame, not the slightest sign of doubt.

We've worked so hard for so long and sacrificed so much, and things are going great, but instead of being optimistic I'm just depressed as hell, wondering wtf the future holds.

I usually try to be the better person, but in this moment I am so fucking angry at this stupid fucking world. Every single opportunity these entitled, petty shit heads get they twist the knife.

Congratulations, it worked. You cut us, you made us feel like shit. I hope it felt good. Because you're not making this situation better. You're showing you're not the good and accepting and enlightened ones that can drive us forward, that can bring us together, that cares for anyone but yourselves.

You wanted us as enemies? Congratulations, you fucking win. I don't know why you would do this, I didn't want this, my whole life I have always tried to accept others' opinions and respect others. And we've been nothing but pissed and spat on for many years on end now by so fucking many. You fuckers have no idea how fucking awful you are.

Feeling better, at least we won't be dead tomorrow. But I wish I were more excited to get to work. I wish I had hope this world wouldn't try to suppress or destroy us. These fuckers are so petty it boils my fucking blood. 8 fucking years these petulant shits kicked us into the mud. I am SICK OF IT.

The game is kicking ass, our health is returning, we have a burning fire in our soul. For that I am grateful.

I've decided a need a break from this blog. I'm done putting myself out there. I know people will only use it against us. It's what this vile fucking industry does now.

And if you're one of those people that treats others as lesser than just because they don't conform to your exacting standards, if you cancel people, abandon family, friends, destroy coworkers, throw resumes in the trash, reject projects, talk shit behind their back, demonize them...

...well, Karma's a bitch.