What a strange decade it's been! There were winners, there were losers *COUGH*. 

Overall, it really feels like everything's gone to shit... The unfortunate truth is sometimes you gotta hit rock bottom face first, bloody your nose and carry yourself on through shards of glass before you learn to pick yourself off the floor and get your act together (trust me I know).

Feeling better today... feeling fuckin' GOOD today! Looking forward to getting to work. Head's in a good place, none of that melodramatic shit we find ourselves in when we're unwell. Happy to be sliding those down-in-the-dump blogs with something of higher optimism .

Today feels like a great return to normalcy.

You know, all these years, all these inane shoving of faces in the mud, the dejections, the resume rejections. The snide comments, the crony canceling.

We've seen what this world is like when petty shits have the wheel and they use their ill gained power to paint those they don't favor as their enemies, and by hook and by crook they turned us against ourselves. And it's infuriating in a way that has stood my neckbeard hairs on end for longer than I care to admit.

I'm fucking over it, I'm fucking tired of the decline, I'm fucking tired about talking about it, I'm tired of sitting here like a bitch complaining that it's everyone else's fault pointing fingers. 

This is America damn it! We pull ourselves up by the bootstraps and we fucking fight for that inch! We don't whine and cry and make ourselves victims and ask for handouts. If SeaCrit finds success, it's gonna be because it's better than the dick drivel these weak shits put out on a yearly basis with their teams of 5000 soft handed dilettantes.

There was a little boy stood on a burning log, rubbing his hands with glee.

He said, "Oh Mother England, did you light my smile; or did you light
This fire under me?
One day I'll be a minstrel in the gallery.
And paint you a picture of the queen.
And if sometimes I sing to a cynical degree -
It's just the nonsense that it seems.
So I drift down through the Baker Street valley, in my steep-sided
Un-reality.

HOT FUCK THIS SONG SLAPS

I'm so looking forward to just being in a sane world again where you race, your creed, whoever you like to suck on doesn't fucking matter. Can you tough out this long hellride of gamedev? Can you push through the bullshit, take accountability and make these games without pointing fingers at others? Can you make Mario hop on the goomba and defeat Bowser? That's all that fucking matters.

Gamdev and victimhood are oil and fucking vinegar. It's time to man the fuck up and start making good games again, it's time to stop being candy asses.

Enough playing the fucking blame game.

Good f*cking god what were the past 10 years? What the fuck happened to this medium? What happened to US?

Fucking shameful. Fucking embarrassing. A lot of self absorbed, incompetent shits really exposed themselves and took everyone down in the process.

Whether we harp on this decay, whether we harp on these subversive assholes who poisoned the body of gamedev with a thousand tiny cuts of snide derisions.

The song remains the same (FUCK YOU, BAKER STREET MUSE IS THE FUCKING BEST AND YOU WILL LISTEN TO IT AGAIN). We make SeaCrit a better fucking game!

I'm burned out as hell, could probably use a break, but there's no time to waste! What should we work on today anyhow?

I think we'll just cook up some cool weapons and items and tune up bonuses on the way. If we get to populating some spawn systems great, but it's no biggie.

The industry remains in turmoil, it's not going to change overnight, but the writing is on the wall. I don't expect any eyes on SeaCrit any soon, nor does it really matter, because we're in the zone and making the game worthy, one day at a time. Once we push it to its potential THEN I will be more annoying on the internet trying to  get eyes on it, but I'm optimistic that when this industry DOES pull it's head out of it's ass, when those angry subversive shit heads no longer have the power to suppress others at their whims we'll have a pretty kick ass game ready to go!

Here's hoping this is the last whiney, social commentary driven post I ever make! What a ride it's been. But it truly feels like maybe this world is healing. I harbor no ill will towards these petty losers, it's not their fault they were born with a chip on their shoulder, and hell, many of them are REALLY good at making games, I look forward to maybe working with them in the future and showing them that not all gamedevs on the other side are as evil as they paint them to be! 

Here's hoping that soon there will be room for us annoying neckbeards who just want to empower other people down on their luck to stab the imaginary orc in the back :)

NO REST FOR THE WICKED! Time to get to work. SeaCrit is gonna be kick ass soon!

Oh, carnivore diet seems to be doing me pretty good! I sautéed some shrimp in my home made hot sauce and some butter and hot damn was it good. I'm actually feeling so fucking good I feel the need to get some exercise done before getting to work to let off some energy. I don't crave the carbs at all today like I did yesterday, maybe we're just a natural born fucking caveman :D