We're really phoning this blog in.

I heard a great 80's song over the radio that I hadn't heard in ages and I promptly forgot it's name. While mulling it over just now I remembered it had a "D" in it. 

I wasn't sure if I should blog or not, but if I could just find that song... 

So I decided to try my luck and went to a top 10 one hit wonder lists and looked it over... no luck. So I went to a top 100 and did it again. And it was at this moment I thought to myself. "This is stupid, we're never going to find the song here", search on, letter D highlighted all over the 15 pages to scroll through.

And just as I was clicking the back button, I let my eyes settle on one random song and wouldn't you know it:

I don't think this song is relevant, I don't even know what it's about. All i know is that I thought it was catchy a couple days ago. Do we really need any reason to do anything any more? 

What on earth are we blathering about?

Another flailing of emotion.

I'm in a weird state of mind, pretty regular occurrence. I'm sure you can relate. 

Life can become quite nonsensical and meaningless if we allow frivolity and hedonism to take over. If having  a little class and being noble loses its virtue we quickly fall into a race to the bottom and everyone lies cheats and steals in a race to the bottom.

If life seems surreal, if it feels like we're in some kind of terrible dream. It's because we are. We took it all for granted, we looked around and saw everyone else hitting the pipe hard getting their moral highs, claiming all the prestige for themselves. Divied up among the underhanded.

Bleh, got a good bit of work today, I have neither the energy nor the mind to write anything that I haven't blathered a hundred times before.

Strange days. No one is in control, and everyone is waking up in unison. Few are prepared to take on the problems, or even acknowledge them.

Those who do are hated and scorned.

You see these petulant fools parading their pompous virtues as the ground crumbles and decays beneath them. And you're compelled to want to save everyone, but they scoff and demonize you, think you're advancing as if to attack them.

What's to be done? At some point you hope the ground gives way. But children are caught up in the mix, some of them housed in adult bodies. So many people who never got to truly live, to suffer, to rise above, to come to understand the value of sacrifice and hard work. The meaning of the alignment of all these complex emotions. Stunted from the start, smothered with longings and contrivances. A life of shallow distractions providing only to the rising wall of sound.

I'm just so damned tired. I worry for the future, we have regressed so much, we've become so petulant and weak, and few are looking to improve the situation. One by one the sane voices in the room fade to a rising clamor of noise. Whines, derisions, dissonances. Not a word of apology, not a petition for peace. Glares, fingerings.

The pressure is dropping.

Anyway, kinda accidently ended up sorting some code today with assembly organization. Hope that will save us compile time in the long run. 

It's so easy to get distracted, it's so easy to get riled up over all the nonsense going on in this crazy world. We gotta focus. We're close, just gotta get these bonuses in the game and continue to tune things up. Eyes on the prize.