Don't do this it's unwise. Make sure you don't overscope! Why did we do this thing, the correct coding paradigm is this! It's this person over here's fault!

So tired of damned excuses! High and mighty, soft neckbeards in one corner, moralists in the other. What a joke this industry has become as the vying factions finger each other.

You know why most projects fail? Because most devs don't have the heart or grit to fail in the first place! Failure is the most important part of success!

GET UP OFF YOUR ASS AND WRITE SOME CODE YOU F*CKING POSERS

Too many soft handed rich, coddeled do nothings manhandling this space. Too many I told you so types who never took a risk. Too many people getting high on tertiary nothings, flaunting their wonderous ego's who never wrote a line of damned code.

Bunch of f*cking posers and do-gooders in this damned world.

ANYWAY!

Work went pretty ok yesterday, only got a few hours of work, but slept like sh*t. I think some med i got put on some months back is making it hard for me to sleep well, the caffeine didn't help. Got 5 hours today, should allow me to get a pretty ok chunk of work done. No more caffien though, not gonna risk it when things are lumbering forward.

I've kinda decided we're going to work on fun little chunks of chunks. Tiny clumps of fun design setups that I can then use to populate larger chunks. This will allow for fast iteration and content generation in the future. MOST IMPORTANTLY it fools my brain into thinking that what we're working on is permanent and reusable so we'll more likely to get to work thinking we're not spinning wheels in mud!

Gamedev is a constant mind game to convince yourself that what you're making isn't going to be tossed away and forgotten in a month. I mean, to be fair, it helps to have solid plans and get work done you're not going to throw away, that is helpful to finishing too!

Spread so thin every day getting side tracked tweaking and tuning random things. But they all add up!

I wonder... are the systems slowly getting better? Or has it just been us getting better at gamedev? And as we get better we have to constantly go back and improve things.

Wax on, wax off m*ther fuckers.

It's all an illusion. All the techno babble, all the neckbeards arguing over coding paradigms and methods. All that matters is that you open the project, make mistakes, and get better. A problem is a problem, the better you get at solving problems and understanding complex systems the more you can apply that critical thinking elsewhere. Critical thinking is sorely lacking in this world.

That's one thing I enjoy about gamemdev. Physics don't care about your feelings, they don't give a damn about your ideology, your "tribe", how much money you sank into your shit ego projects.

Do the systems coalesce to be something fun? No amount of gaslighting or post modern horse sh*t will impact this reality.

Anyway! I have this idea for onion rings i wanna try. I was thinking sweet potato, almond flour, coconut powder, xantham powder (haven't tried it yet!), milk, red hot hot sauce, and one egg with some parmesan cheese. I think it just might work!

Quick little edit: Thought just popped into my head. I really hate what we've done to this world. With this AI, with the degradation of music. We've made so many wonderful, wholesome and purely good things no longer profitable. We used to have musicians and artists and painters and we would worship great performers. Woodstock, Live Aide, radio stars.

We celebrated humanity once. We encouraged ourselves and others to pick up an instrument, pick up a pen, the try to compete and make great things, and celebrate those great things.

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?

AI, victimhood, fucking tribalism everywhere. I feel bad for this current generation, living in this terrible nihilism. No one pushing them to try for more. No one telling them their life matters, that their contributions are important.

It's a sick fucking thing we've done with our humanity. All this lazy horse shit polluting our minds at a mass scale that nothing matters, that trivial judgements are the norm, that there's nothing worth fighting for.

Too much shit to stress about, too much shit to be distracted by. Gonna go brew up a little tea, gonna have a little snack, and then we're gonna get a little work done. Not sure what, but we gotta get to work. So much to do... not that anyone cares in this mad, mad world.