I'm taking a little break from dev, hopefully won't be long or indefinite. It's come to the point I no longer hope i'm just going to get better naturally, most days I just feel sick. Have an appt. Sunday to check my insides. Hoping they figure out what's wrong, and beyond that hoping something can be done about it. Pretty bummed it's come to this, but it is what it is. Really hope we get back to the grind at some point.

Wanting to kick some arse, make a great game and change the world can only take you so far when you've been poisoning yourself for so many years on end. I was a bit of a dumb sumbitch. What terrifies me most is all this work will simply fade away to obscurity. It's a sh*tty, self absorbed world that doesn't know how to right itself. Too much cognitive dissonance, too many broken systems hell bent on self preservation. We just go through the motions these days, no one understands why the systems exist and how they are broken. It's all just so sad and stupid.

What a crappy blog! Here's hoping it's not the last, but if it is, GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER WORLD.